Too many years of trauma she’d experienced at the hands of a monster, there really could be no other way to describe him.
In conversations she spoke in couched terms, carefully controlling her emotions and keeping herself in check; retelling the story she’d rehearsed so many times.
She’d numbed to the myriad of emotions it could stir; sadness was the maladaptive mask to a seething anger that ducked and weaved, endeavouring to hide. We’d known each other for just over two and a half years, chatting often but had not met in person.
I’d heard pain, struggle, challenge, despair, vulnerability, and courage in her voice many times but it’s funny how the energetic body REALLY picks up a plethora of information when you meet someone in shared space.
In the ‘sacred space’ that’s created between Transpersonal Counsellor/Healer and client, there is an understood agreement that each will hold the other to their highest authenticity.
In bearing witness to the pain, suffering and story, there is a sacred contract made that the path we walk together is about releasing that which holds us back in order to fly.
In each moment, as a limitation of the small self is acknowledged, we take a step closer to the Authentic Self; the real and powerful self where our unlimited potential and new possibilities patiently await our discovery of them.
When one opens the door, creates that Space and then calls in Spirit as well, there’s a palpable energy that flows and the divine intelligence within the body just takes over, creating miraculous shifts.
I was intrigued by the fact that Freya, for that is what I will call her, did not want to talk beforehand.
Perhaps she was all talked out, perhaps she didn’t think it would shift anything, perhaps her body recognized that answers were trapped within her body and she needed to access them.
Whichever one it was, she strode in and made her way straight into the healing room with a sense of purpose and directness. She laid down and immediately surrendered.
I didn’t need to slowly take her into an altered state, she was there almost instantly, as though her body had been awaiting this opportunity to shed the illusions which kept her trapped and she was releasing all she could.
I felt pain instantly within my head and as I shared this, she began talking about one of the more brutal times he’d hit her.
My body acts like a barometer of my clients during healing and I often receive a synchronistic experience of what is occurring for them. I’ve learnt to divide my awareness between my body and its signals and theirs in the process.
Often my clients follow this lead and are able to divide their awareness too. This Ego strength, is crucial to healing, for it means that the client can learn to become the witness of their process and also their Ego’s games afterwards, rather than cycling the story.
Detachment, without disengaging is a powerful key to changing the Soul Blueprint of one’s life.
I felt my throat close as she began to cry and shared this observation. Between sobs, she shared the memory that had already arisen in her awareness of being choked and feeling herself ‘fighting for her life’.
As we deepened the awareness of feelings within her body, Freja began describing the terror of being isolated and beaten, of wondering if she’d survive, of being simultaneously belittled and verbally abused and the presence of a massive fog that left her feeling confused.
Shame, humiliation, degradation, fear, terror, uncertainty, all rose and cleared in that space.
She described in detail, and felt within her own body the physical and emotional pain and suffering she had endured, as it began releasing. It was beyond anything any living Soul should ever have to experience.
She sobbed throughout the entire process, deep in the state change of allowing her body to clear old memories and deep wounds and I quietly reassured her that she was doing well and was perfectly safe now; I was beside her and would stay with her, making sure she was safe.
Each time the sensations within her body moved and we began accessing them, the divine intelligence within her completely took over.
Her Higher Awareness knew exactly what she’d held onto and exactly what she needed to access and release; despite being very challenging and requiring enormous courage, it flowed with a grace and beauty that was astounding.
The body’s wisdom and capacity to know exactly what it needs is SUCH a profound Miracle to witness.
Freja was determined to remove as much as she could, she verbalized that she’d waited a long time for someone to hold space for her like this and she was going to let go of as much as she could.
I had never witnessed the….